Ramblings again

To be honest, it feels abit intrigued n weird that, for e first time in my life, I look myself in a picture and I catch myself thinking that I AM slim now, without hvg to take in ‘angles’ to disguise my double chins or bumps.

Its an odd but good feeling. And nw I know why, when u lose ur baby fats u look so much different than before. Its like, I nw know why Dawn Yang the blogger looked so different then n now, n why there were so many accusations tt she went for plastic surgery. I do believe her tt she didn’t go for any artificial fixes.

I myself dun even look like myself 1 year ago – my nose has become smaller – so much so that immigration officer at indonesia tot I did a nose job! My face has also become smaller – no I didn’t do any botox jabs!

The wonders of slimming down.

And I’m glad I did it via a healthy, stressfree n nobound way. ^.^ cheers to TRA!

“What’s up?”

It’s very daunting to do this…but i’m gonna write it anyways.

Pretext

This blog has been dead-quiet.

and i’m been fighting internally whether to blog this out or not.

Honestly, this is MY blog, and yes, I have rights to write whatever I want.

But with audiences who know the real-life Me, it’s tough to not notice that what I pen down will shape perceptions.

Today, I write this, with the context of being a responsible blogger, to explain to my (past-faithful) readers, why this blog has been so painfully quiet for so long.

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For the past 6 months, since May, beng and I have been going through very volatile times. UP, DOWN, UP, DOWN again, UP again, DOWN even longer, then UP for an even shorter period, and DOWN for an even longer duration.

6 months. not funny.

I dont think i can tahan anymore.

But that said, even my colleague who cant accept the fact that her husband cheated on her, still eventually didn’t do the big D.

THOUGH, of course, it’s not out of blind love. It is a choice to re-work the marriage, after acknowledging Cause in the Matter.

For me, I shant elaborate on our problems, as it is based on my own perception. No one can say I’m right, or I’m wrong. No one can side anyone, as we all say, every single matter has 2-sides of the coin.

So, just listen me rattle away on things you probably wouldnt understand.

Maybe it is due to the fact that things are rocky that I find consolation in the presence of other people.

And I feel like I cant tell anyone, cause I dont want judgments, and “I-think”s. I dont want consolation, dont want pity, dont want attention. I just wish to hear that they know and are confident I’ll be fine – like genuinely. Cos’ i’m just like anyone out there, and like everybody else, we ALL have problems. OPINIONS don’t help either. Giving opinions is that’s all there is. The one giving opinions is not the one who’s going to handle the consequences. Nowadays, I seldom give opinions. Maybe just neutral perspectives with no past experiences mixed in.

Sometimes the road just seem too tough to continue walking, and I’m really at a juncture of moving forward with the hope that i’ll see a ray of light, or quit and turn around and take another path.

It’s tough.

And I am still standing mid-way, not moving.

“Relationship Seminar”? wot?

We are off to attend a “relationship” seminar every tuesday for 10 weeks. Sounds really cheesy. Is our relationship so bad that we have to go for it?? Not that.

We had some bad times, as with every couple. Now, looking forward, we see it to be an essential part in our relationship. With a common goal and commitment and proper communication, how we can bring the r/s to the next level. What’s more, this is a Relationship seminar – not just BGR relationships. but every type of relationships in our life – friends, family, work.

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~The New Student.

No separate ROM day

we’ve jointly decided that we will not do a separate ROM. Solemnization will be done during the actual day of the dinner, as we want to minimize our costs as much as possible. (and frens’ pockets as well.)

We may find a day to celebrate our (long overdue) engagement and hold a small party at my parent company’s hotel (having low low asian staff rates now. about 70% off! hehe!). ok, an engagement party is my idea. hehe.

we’ll probably keep it a tiny and private affair cos we cant squeeze everyone into 1 tiny hotel room.

Looking for a geomancer

Anyone has recommendations of those true-blue traditional and accurate geomancers who don’t fix their fees at exorbitant rates  but rather accept angbaos?

i still dont believe there isnt one out there. why would real shifus charge so many money for, if geomancy is their passion and helping people is their life’s purpose??

*grumbles*

Scary, Fun Budgeting

“why do you have a euphoric look on your face…??”, beng asked as i was going through our June budgeting this afternoon with him.

Budgeting is scary, it’s daunting, but at the same time, i dunno why that i dunno why, i’m surprisingly deriving joy while explaining my ingenious 2 year budgeting breakdown:

“ok, this month we need to start putting in XXX cos u see, we have commitments a, b, c, d, e, f, g …..which by date xxxx we’ll need a, yyyy we’ll need to spend b, etc…. when you work backwards based on my excel formula, this works out to be like this…..Besides, we need to account for a gradual input, so 1st 6 mths we put in XXXX, then nx 6 mths YYYY,…..then see, we can then manage the upcoming expenses of aa, bb, cc, dd…….”

i’m quite proud of my excel spreadsheet really. hehe. i broke it down into each and every aspect of expenditure that i can predict in the next 2 years and it’s quite fun doing it out. How we get the money isn’t important, cos as long as the commitment is there, we will make it. More importantly is whenever we have the same goal ahead of us that’ll make the whole process easy or tough. ^^ Gambatte!

~BTB

We are back! from a whirlwind of events…

we were at Kota Kinabalu scaling southeast asia’s peak and having a leisurely time from 22 – 28 May.

will post up more pics when i hv e time to do the sorting and uploading onto wordpress.

29 – 30 May we did a crazy thing with intuners – all 9 of us took up a vodka clinical test (how cool is that! but it’s really not so after u know what happened to us) at changi general hospital. it was BAD. we had a good time having a “mini gathering” the night before playing pool and watching serene’s wedding and our KK trip pics, watching movies, BUT, morning time comes when we had fasted for 9 hrs, drinking about 300ml of 70% mixer of smirnoff-orangejuice wasn’t funny. at first yes. cos everyone was giggling, dancing, speaking loudly (ah, the perils of being drunk – u become incoherent and start acting weird). then by the 3rd 100ml, clement started vomiting. quite violently. MT’s sis too. and huishan as well. we all started having monsterous headaches. it was so not funny. i ALMOST puked too cos i smelt the puke when i went to the toilet. had to force myself to bathe so as to freshen up. we were only released at about 3pm that afternoon. At the end, poor clement suffered the worst. But WOW, an experience it is.

then, me and beng went through a rough patch from 30 May to 6 June. that’s 1 whole week of…well….bad times. Some friends knew, some didn’t. I would only say, we are glad it’s all over. We are now planning forward positively and moving on to our next milestone – getting a geomancer this June.

Half-yearly HDB sale queue results

Your queue number is 06076.

As about 10000 applicants have applied for the 438 flats offered for sale. Applicants with queue position 2001 and above will be informed of their selection appointment if there are flats still available before their turn is due.

SO SAD. T.T

JDI.

i love that nike slogan.

what’s in my space now?

people like to say “I have no time”.

Who has? just like the chinese says: “时间是自己找出来的。”

没有人是没时间。只是把事件排成重要或不重要。

最重要的: 你的长期目标是什么？

What is your long-term goal? What do YOU plan to do in 5 years time?

I’m currently now busying myself with 3 main things:

1) Self-fulfillment

2) Working towards my future

3) Being happy

I do #1 via the volunteer tuition i give. i get alot of satisfaction from there. Many ppl have told me how passionate they are about that too, how interested they are in such things…but really, Action speaks louder than Words. i always tell myself – “drmisha, don’t just TALK, COMPLAIN, WHINE. DO SOMETHING.“

My aiesec friend is also asking me to join the local alumni team which i’m considering. i mean, inject some LIFE into my life manz! Face people, talk to people, get into the community! then my life will not just all be about me, myself and i. which is a little self-centered. if i can contribute while i still can, sure why not!

sometimes i head down to Landmark centre to contribute whenever i can. Assisting is a happy thing to do, for me.

NSE is cool. help people, help myself.

I still have the 3Fs, an I and a W:

Family, Friends, Fiance, in-laws, Work..

Divine Couture

BEAUUUUTIFULLLL gown from Divine Couture….*dreamy eyes*